In this video I give you a BRIEF description and a brief VISUAL of my very depressing, miserable living situation. Regardless of the way you’ve seen me in pictures and in my other videos THIS what I’m actually currently living in behind the scenes. Again I would like to stress that this BRIEF video doesn’t even completely show why I am depressed. There are other reasons too. This is just one of the biggest ones. I may have even forgot to mention some things in this video. If I have, then I will mention them in later videos.
For those of you who don’t know. Here is a short description of who I am :
My name is Caleb and I am 20 years old. My interest are dancing, music, video games, going out, and chilling with friends(when I have them). I have a huge passion for dancing and want to be a choreographer. I have severe anxiety and have difficulty going out of the house. I do go out… however, it is very hard for me to and it is very uncomfortable most of the time. The only way I can really obtain any comfort is through the medication I take(Which I’m starting to develop an addiction to by the way. Isn’t that just great?) Klonopin. I also have to have somebody with me most of the time. I get very afraid to go out alone. The places I have the most difficulty going are places that are BIG AND/OR Noisy, and crowded. Some good examples are Grocery stores, department stores, huge parking lots, huge streets with a lot of traffic, restaurants, and big city’s such as NYC. The fact that I have trouble going out to these places combined with the fact that my family more often than not refuses to go with me anywhere makes it impossible for me to even go to the grocery store to get food. Leaving me hungry at most times. My anxiety is so severe and disables me to the point where I cannot even hold a job. For this reason, I am receiving SSI benefits. I am also slipping into a deep depression from being unable to leave the house, not having any friends, and not being able to go out anywhere to meet any. And that is mainly what this video is about… Please keep in mind however that severe as my depression is, My anxiety is even more severe, and I believe it is the root factor contributing to my depression because of all the things its disabling me from doing.
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Ashley D. first got ill in 2003 or 2004. She was prescribed medications that she experienced severe side effects from. When Ashley brought up her issues and concerns with her Doctor, she was told that this was normal and that she had nothing to worry about. As time went on, the issues, side effects and mental illness became more severe, and she was eventually admitted into the psych ward. Ashley was kept in the hospital for 3 and half months, where she was put on medication after medication, all with no success. The side effects got so bad from the high amount of psych meds that her kidneys and liver began to shut down and she almost died, all while being in the psychiatric institution. Ashley felt that the drugs sucked all life and hope out of her, and as a result it made her suicidal. While she was in the psych ward she was told that she would never be normal, function in society, go back to school, drive a car or have a job.
Ashley’s Dad was not impressed and quite concerned with the treatment that she was receiving while in the psych ward. He decided to look up Bipolar Alternatives on the internet and found a company called Truehope Nutritional Support. Truehope offered a Multivitamin Mineral supplement called Empowerplus that was used to treat Mental disorders such as Bipolar, Depression, Schizophrenia, Anxiety, ADHD and more. Truehope also offered a Mental Wellness program to help with coming off of the psychiatric medications with as little side effects as possible.
When Ashley’s Dad suggested Truehope’s Empowerplus and their Mental Wellness Program to her, she was skeptical and apprehensive. She had been told by her Doctor that if she came off her wellbutrin and seroquel, that she may experience seizures and other terrible side effects. After some persuasion Ashley finally decided to try the Truehope route. It took Ashley 5 months to withdraw from her medications, and she says that it was not the easiest.
Today Ashley is still on Truehope’s Empowerplus and she reports that she is happy and healthy. She is overjoyed that she had someone to help her along her way to Mental wellness.
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I’ll be back with more hints to self-healing.
This information comes from Dr. MARCIA LINEHAN from Seattle, Washington, USA.
She is a psychologist – the guru of DBT. I used the format her book entitled “Skills Tr5aining Manual Treating Borderline Personality Disorder
although it entitled Borderline, I still think it all relates to Bipolar as well. It’s Coping Skills. And we need to find a way to cope.
enjoy!
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I don’t know who made this video but it’s the best video about bipolar I’ve ever seen.
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Kenneth Robbins, MD, clinical associate professor of psychiatry at the University of Wisconsin-Madison, describes the signs and symptoms of mania in bipolar disorder, including a patient who gave everyone at his dealership a new car.
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Can People Recover From Mental Illness? Mad Wisdom Depression Project
Anna Miller form the Depression project interviews Karen Beth Glunz about mad wisdom needed to overcome depression and bipolar disorders without going through the conventional mental health system and being drugged by psychiatry. Can people every really become fully recovered or cured from mental illness?
Visit the Ask for Grace Website at;
http://www.askforgrace.net
Visit The Depression Project at;
http://www.thedepressionproject.com
This video was produced by Psychetruth
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Music by
Jimmy Gelhaar
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The third in a series of videos in which Dr. Astruc answers frequently asked questions regarding Bipolar II. In this video Dr. Astruc answers the question, “How does Bipolar II manifest itself?” outlining three different common presentations of Bipolar II and the associated symptoms.
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In this video I go over cyclothymic disorder or Bipolar III Disorder and Bipolar NOS (Not Otherwise Sepcified) briefly. Also, kindling effect and the types of psychotic symptoms that might be seen in Bipolar Disorder.
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The second in a series of videos in which Dr. Astruc answers frequently asked questions regarding Bipolar II. In this video Dr. Astruc answers the question, “What is hypomania and what distinguishes it from more severe forms of mania?”
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Bipolar Disorder My Story is an account of the symptoms suffered leading up to an extreme manic breakdown which led to my hospitalization
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